Today’s Zero to Hero blog challenge is tough for me, primarily, because I’m not entirely certain what was on my mind when I decided to blog.
I’d been considering starting one for so long that the only thing I was thinking, when I finally succumbed to the lure of WordPress, was: ‘well, why not? It’s as good a time as any.’ But, that’s not to say that everything was as easy as I’d hoped it would be.
I’ve written a lot in the past, but very little of it has ever seen the light of day (60% of it never got any further than my beta reader). It’s one thing to write fiction for submission to competitions and editors where everything is vetted, re-proofed and highly polished (again) before it reaches the general public. Blogging is different: pouring my thoughts out onto the screen for everyone to see is a nerve-wracking process. I’m reliant on my internal editor – an entity that can find fault in ever word I put down – to catch any errors, omissions, or potential disasters, and me and him don’t always (ever) get along.
Every time I reach the end of the drafting process and my cursor hovers over the publish button, I feel a cold chill run down my spine. My mouth grows dry at the thought of others reading these posts. The mouse wavers, lured by the siren’s call that is the ‘Move to Trash’ option. And then I think, what kind of writer doesn’t want to be read? How can I learn and grow if no-one reads what I write? And how does anyone read something I won’t publish?
In the end, I take a deep breath, close my eyes and click the mouse.